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My life looks quite pulled together.
Looks can be deceiving.
Do I have a roof over my head and a job that will pay the rent on that roof? Yes, praise the good Lord. Do I have a sweet sweet boyfriend and a warm fuzzy cat? Yes, again, praise the good Lord.
However, that same good Lord is sparking a desire in my heart, and that desire could take me to a frightening place.
I call that place "organic chemistry."
I recently realized that I have a passion for nutrition and always have. It's always seemed so natural to me, so I didn't think about it as, oh, a calling (you may have read entire blog posts on my fascination with nutrition, meanwhile I had no idea that other people didn't nerd out about such things). Which means I majored in Sociology, which, while awesome, will not afford me much of a job outside of research and/or teaching, which I'm not feeling.
SO, grad school, I'm looking to you to remedy my academic deficiencies in this area so that I can go out into the world and teach people how to put the right things inside their super cool hydroelectric machines - aka, bodies.
Well, I started daydreaming. I started researching grad schools. Found The One. Found The Masters Program Designed For Cole. And found that I lack 5 classes in prep for that course. A full year of general chemistry and 2 organic chemistry classes. That frightens me to no end. There's a REASON I went into the humanities department. It's because math and science were a little... harsh for me. Chemistry isn't my strong suit.
But imagine, if you will, me as a Master of Advanced Study in Maternal and Child Nutrition. Be still, my beating heart. But if that much chemistry is required to get in, first, can I do it?? Can I make it through those prerequisites? And second, does that mean that the program is super duper chemistry heavy? Is that really what God's calling me to?...
Anxiety. And that's just really silly, because if God has planted this desire in my heart, it's for a reason. Maybe because I need to start on this path to find the one that's really for me, or maybe because this IS that path and I have to go through the valley of the shadow of evil (organic chemistry) to refine my faith in Him and see how He completely carries me through this--to see His Goodness and Sufficiency. To see His Faithfulness and Omniscience. Do I really believe in these characteristics of God? Because if I do, my only response is to trust Him and step forward in faith.
Without panicking and losing my mind.
So, sweet reader, pray for me as I embark on this frightening journey into the complete unknown. I feel completely ill-equipped for this, but he has pro-vided (He has seen before me, He knows what I need and He will give it right when I need it). Maybe he has provided by encouraging you to procrastinate whatever you're doing enough to pop over to this blog, and maybe YOU are a nutritionist and you can give me some tips and tricks! If so, leave a comment. Even if you're not a nutritionist, encouraging comments are welcomed and needed.
Love :)
Looks can be deceiving.
Do I have a roof over my head and a job that will pay the rent on that roof? Yes, praise the good Lord. Do I have a sweet sweet boyfriend and a warm fuzzy cat? Yes, again, praise the good Lord.
However, that same good Lord is sparking a desire in my heart, and that desire could take me to a frightening place.
I call that place "organic chemistry."
I recently realized that I have a passion for nutrition and always have. It's always seemed so natural to me, so I didn't think about it as, oh, a calling (you may have read entire blog posts on my fascination with nutrition, meanwhile I had no idea that other people didn't nerd out about such things). Which means I majored in Sociology, which, while awesome, will not afford me much of a job outside of research and/or teaching, which I'm not feeling.
SO, grad school, I'm looking to you to remedy my academic deficiencies in this area so that I can go out into the world and teach people how to put the right things inside their super cool hydroelectric machines - aka, bodies.
Well, I started daydreaming. I started researching grad schools. Found The One. Found The Masters Program Designed For Cole. And found that I lack 5 classes in prep for that course. A full year of general chemistry and 2 organic chemistry classes. That frightens me to no end. There's a REASON I went into the humanities department. It's because math and science were a little... harsh for me. Chemistry isn't my strong suit.
But imagine, if you will, me as a Master of Advanced Study in Maternal and Child Nutrition. Be still, my beating heart. But if that much chemistry is required to get in, first, can I do it?? Can I make it through those prerequisites? And second, does that mean that the program is super duper chemistry heavy? Is that really what God's calling me to?...
Anxiety. And that's just really silly, because if God has planted this desire in my heart, it's for a reason. Maybe because I need to start on this path to find the one that's really for me, or maybe because this IS that path and I have to go through the valley of the shadow of evil (organic chemistry) to refine my faith in Him and see how He completely carries me through this--to see His Goodness and Sufficiency. To see His Faithfulness and Omniscience. Do I really believe in these characteristics of God? Because if I do, my only response is to trust Him and step forward in faith.
Without panicking and losing my mind.
So, sweet reader, pray for me as I embark on this frightening journey into the complete unknown. I feel completely ill-equipped for this, but he has pro-vided (He has seen before me, He knows what I need and He will give it right when I need it). Maybe he has provided by encouraging you to procrastinate whatever you're doing enough to pop over to this blog, and maybe YOU are a nutritionist and you can give me some tips and tricks! If so, leave a comment. Even if you're not a nutritionist, encouraging comments are welcomed and needed.
Love :)
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